2011, The last calendar quarter has been a period of change for me. It might have been the golden time for many ,to me it It really didn’t come as i wanted. Without any grudge or personal jittery, I would love to congratulate everyone who found my date of birth year(11) a brilliant year. I wish that they keep on getting good moments in years to come.
Personally I feel good to see my calendar turning into 2012, keeping the 2011 into the past, thus making it a history. Physically, it seems like a cake walk, but dumping the past out of present isn’t that easy. Specially, when you are made to do it twice, at the fag end of two decades. Obviously, never comes a time when two situations correlate, but a pain is a pain.
I would love to see 2012 in a different perspective, because , to some extent while thinking much about the calendar q4, I failed to bring happiness in my present, I failed to see good things and people here with me, I completely failed to perform my duties of being a son and a member of a family. Much like a nomad, I went through an independent rhyme where in I forgot that I am just not living for me, there are some lifelines who want me , who actually love to spend their time with me. May be , they never said this to me, they never complained , but they deserved something much much much better, they really wanted a better treatment. I failed in miserably. I really really made my problems a disguise for each one of them.
Of late I realize that holding memories and things of the past will suffice nothing more than a flawed present.
I don’t blame anyone for the circumstances, it was me who took the decision, but with things going much on the complex sides, problems actually began, thereby taking place in common course of daily time.
I know I have to think it my way and really need to go beyond one facet of life, otherwise there won’t be much different in q4 calender 11 and the new dawn.
Happy new year guys…